Going Back a Few Months

For seven years I have been asking for another baby. I wanted to be a Mom again and wanted to watch Erwin be a new daddy again. When the subject came up, Abby would get so excited about the possibility of becoming a big sister. The feeling I had was strong. It was a feeling I couldn't explain. I just knew I wasn't done being a Mom. I mean, when I think about it, 4 months ago everyone thought I was a nut! My kids could fix themselves breakfast while I slept a little later. Both were in school all day giving me my time to work and set my own schedule. Topping those two reasons was the fact that both of my babies were born and sent to the NICU. I had never left the hospital with a newborn baby. Why would I want to do that again? I had no idea why but it was a sure thing for me. I wanted to have another baby. Only one thing in my way. My lovely husband did not want another baby. There was no convincing or compromising. A big block in our marriage would be an under statement. As much as I knew I wanted a baby, he knew he did not.

The final conversation came in February and I backed down. My marriage is and always has been the most important thing to me. Again, another horribly hard moment since my feelings were just as strong then as they ever were. With the help of a few friends, I began the tough job of learning to let go.

Maybe a week or 2 later I read a post on a Mommy FB page. It was in regards to a company called Angel's Foster Family Network. It said they were in need of Southbay families to become Foster parents.

...Baby Alarm...
To be cont...
:)Amy