He can’t go on vacation with us so we will cut it a few days short. We need to take advantage of Erwin having this time off. Doesn’t happen very often. A lot of my friends are happy that I will get a chance to sleep and have “me” time. First off, I don’t sleep well anytime. That is why newborns were perfect for our family. Secondly, “me” is made up of my husband, my kids and obviously the base of Amy. Without any one of those pieces, I’m not fully me. (But no doubt -- I love my friends!)
BioMom gave us no other choice but to use a respite family for 4 days and 3 nights. Good thing about my Angel's support groups is getting to know the other Mommas. This way I can pretty much hand pick the family to watch “Little Man” while we are away. He is going to have a great time and hopefully not have too much of a hard time without us. There are two little boys he will fall in love with. Plus, they are an outdoors family. The park and the beach are just a few things on their itinerary.
When I picked up “Little Man” from his 4 hour unsupervised visit last week, I let BioMom know the name and a few details about the other family taking in her son. I also told her, “We will be returning a few days earlier than we originally planned since we didn’t want to leave “Little Man” with a strange family for Thanksgiving.” She immediately got sad eyes and said, “Awwee….Amy!!” She felt bad. And I was pleased as pie to see that. I know she has a heart but I rarely see it. I think it’s very selfish that she wanted to have him with her for the 6 hours of visits she has over 2 days. We would have been gone for 7 days. I would have made up the visits for her as she liked. It would have been no problem. Hearing her dismay for the situation I was now in because of her, was reassuring that “Little Man’s” Mom does have an ability to feel for others. Does feeling guilty about an action count under caring about others? Hmmm…
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WOW!!! So much to catch up on! I am so sorry that your heart is so heavy (as it should be) to return little man to his mom soon. You have been an incredible foster mom and have loved on him more than he will every fully know. But God knows and knows your heart. You are following after HIS heart!
I will be praying for you this December. Praying for Bio-Mom to see that Little Man needs to be #1, praying for your family as you transition and praying for your grieving heart. Hang in there!
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